Et Eärello Endorenna utúlien.
Sinome maruvan ar Hildinyar
tenn' Ambar-metta

Out of the Great Sea to
Middle-earth i am come
In this place i will abide,
and my heirs,
unto the ending of the world

watched lotr again today. hasnt lost any of its essence and meaning in my opnion. still the best show i've watched to date.
i'm so impressed by j. r. r. tolkein's imagination; the extent and the depth of it, his ability to put meaning into every one of his characters, and to intertwine human feelings and such deep emotion into an epic tale of adventure and friendship. (i sound like an advert. lol.)
i cant wait to start reading his book. (first i need to buy it though.)
also bought the soundtrack of lotr. pippin's song is in. so is the elvish song that aragon sang at his coronation. the elvish one is fantasitic. (again, i'm in awe at tolkein's ability to conjur up this language which is graceful and beautiful yet powerful.) pippin's song is really high. an obvious tenor he is. i have trouble reaching the high parts. his voice is fantastic. people in the cinema today actually went quiet the moment he opened his mouth and started on the first note. brilliant.
today i left the cinema with a different feeling. sure i felt sad and all about the parting of ways at the end and the fact that i'd probably never have a friend like frodo had sam or like merry had pippin. but, today i felt jelous. jealous of the nine that made up the fellowship, jealous of bilbo. i was jealous that they had an adventure of a lifetime (even though it nearly took their lives for payment.) i cant help thinking as i walked out of the cinema today, when will my turn come? what will my adventure be like? surely it wont be as majestic as frodo's (nor deadly i hope) but still, an adventure nontheless. for now, the best thing to an adventure would probably be exploring some unheard area in singapore. sheesh. but i'm very sure, my day will come when i will have my adventure. who knows when, but it will come. and when that day comes, i hope that i will not be alone to experience its wonder and excitement. i hope to share it with friends. true life-long friends.
my day will come.

went to the home for the mentally disabled on the 19th. an experience that i will never soon forget. they we all so clingy and well, just plain happy that we came. but it was very eye opening to partake in such a thing. it made me feel more conscious of the things i had and should be thankful for.
also, finished the carolling stuff today. did the accompanied one yesterday. it was good. i had to sing solo for because its christmas! thankfully it went well. was so proud of myself! even mrs kwan said she was impressed. hehe. : ) so all in all we'll be earning $71, which is an okay number. can't wait to feel the (hard earned) cash in my hands.
watched lotr: return of the king on the 22nd. the show was fantastic. cant wait to get the vcd. pipin sang too! his voice was awesome. the song was also great! cant wait to get the soundtrack. hope they have his song though. the show was so sad at the end. frodo had to journey to the undying lands and had to be seperated from the other 3 hobbits. i cried. its was just so heart wrenching, to lose a friend like that. when i went home later, i felt this horrible feeling. it was like what i felt after watching harry potter. this undescribable feeling of sadness and something else. i just felt like hugging someone and crying. i hated the feeling. i felt so trapped in it. i guess it was the thought of losing someone you love like how sam loss frodo and the fact that sam and frodo bonded so much together in their journey through middle earth. i felt it so much that i even dreamt about them (the 4 hobbits). i dreamt that the hobbits and i were very close and that we loved each other. it was a nice feeling to constantly know that someone (in this case, 4 small hobbits) loves you. i think i may be feeling a lack of 'acknowledged love', like what i felt in harry potter. the feeling's still here and i do want to hug someone and cry but hey, i cant win them all can i? i'm gonna watch the show again and just let it all out during the ending. hope i'll feel better after that.

stayed over at my cousin's place last friday to monday. had loads of fun. slept at 4 and woke up at one plus almost everyday. even played diablo at her place. realised that the game is getting preety boring already. still like all those spells though. fantastic stuff.
got back from my cousin's place on monday and guess what? had rehersal for carolling on tuesday. gee, what fun. its getting real tiring these practices. furthermore, the event is just 4 days away and we only have like 8++ songs to our name. fantastic eh? dunno how we're gonna pull it of. kinda worried.
played twister on wednesday after another practice at darius's. who would have ever thought that this game would be so damn tiring. i felt so rubbery after the whole thing. heh. but it was good fun though, getting into all those weird positions.
registered for the damn army yesterday. cant believe i'm gonna spend 3 months in some camp doing physical training and learning all about warfare crap. that's so not my style. lol.
anyway, its another 13 more days till school opens and i have tons of homework not done. i've decided not to care about them and just go straight into revision. lots to revise so little time. board meeting comin too. hope its not as scary as i put it out to be.
lotr opened yesterday. so exciting! cant wait to watch it on monday. its gonna be fun. hope it has a good ending though. heard its 3.5 hrs long. sure hope i dont have to take a piss in the middle of the damn thing. lol.
yesterday, i saw this parody of lotr. god it was funny. the frekin teletubbies were also inside. lol. it was hilarious. frodo baggins was remaned dildo baggins. haha. i had a bloody good laugh.

boots are made for walking
that's just what they'll do
one of these days these boots
are gonna walk all over you

i've tried to log on to my blog 3 times since saturday of which only twice did i manage to access this (god forsaken) webbie. and for that time, i couldnt even publish the post that i took so long to type. so you can imagine how pissed i was. hey at least i'm here now. i really need a new computer. i know i know, i've been telling myself this for a long long time already but its not like i have not done anything about it yet.
i talked to my dad about this. saying how i needed a new computer because this one basically sucked. it lagged, was too slow and i cant even log on to my games or msn now. even logging on to tpjc.net has become a prob but did my dad listen or even cared? nope. he went on ranting about how i was just 'whining for no reason'. (by the way i was not whining. i was just saying it as it is.) i mean he did not even consider. we ended up quarrelling (heatedly i might add.) i mean, its like he didnt even care. anyway, its not like i was asking him to pay for it or anything. my sis and i were gonna pay for it through monthly instalments but its like it didnt even matter to him. its like a vendetta against me having new stuff. what the fuck right?
what ever the case i decided, i'm gonna raise the money myself. i mean i'm already gonna get $300 thanks to the bursary i'll be getting. i'm also planning to give tuition, bio and chem. i already even signed up woth some tuition agencies i found in the newspaper. hopefully there will be calls. my sis is doin her part too though i'm not hoping for much from her. once i raise $1500, then i'll approach my mother and see what she says about this. (i mean she was supportive from the start.) i just hope the other 1.2K will come sooner than later. i'm really sick and tired of this computer.
moving on; during the last wednesday practice at darius's house, i notice that daph was a little moody, particularly towards me. i mean it was the usual signs; ignoring me not much eye contact blah blah the same old deal. i dunno what happened, truth be told. thankfully though it seemed like it was only a one day thing. for the other practices following that day, she was okay. i dunno what happened or whether i was just being oversensitive so i shall not persue it further for lack of proper and adequate information.
also, because i've been spending so much time at darius's, i think he's a very nice guy. (good to bully too. heh.) a real good friend.
went to the hscs gathering on the 6th. i was so happy to see all the other people i have not seen in a while like dhana, ragani, ms quek (man i miss her!), mrs menon, even amos and yuan chin made me sooo happy. i miss hai sing so much. absence does make the heart grow fonder.
after the dinner concert thingy at hscs, ervin, darius, suat, darren, lionel, kit, mel and me went to catch love actually. the show was splendid. if ervin wasnt sitting beside me i think i would have cried at certain points (much to the disdain of melvyn.) i agree with the show wholeheartedly, love actually is everywhere, no matter the time we live in. in my opinion, the more torment, trouble and crisis the world faces, the more pertinent love becomes. so the show was good. : )
before the show, darren, ervin and darius had plans to stay overnight at darius's house after the show. unfortunately, i was too tired after the movie (which ended at 12 plus.) i therefore decided to go home, naturally. however darren displayed his displeasure of me changing my mind as such. i mean what was that all about? i have every right to choose what i want to do next, or in this case, not to do next. it was annoying that i had to take in all his pestering to go to darius's house, he even badmouthed me to ervin sayin that 'i was always like this' and that 'i always change my mind last minute' blah blah blah. that fellow doesnt even know me that well for goodness sakes and he's already dictating my profile. seesh. that whole incident made him seem so petty and bratty; deravatives of a spoilt kid. dont get me wrong, it wasnt an explosive event with him shouting and stuff. but he still annoyed the hell out of me and it just put him in a bad light in my books.
today's practice went well. we did 8 songs to near perfection. near, not 'perfecto', but almost there. i mean, we still deserve credit for managing 8 songs, all with parts, in a week. even if mrs kwan doesnt choose us, i'd still be proud.
truth be told, i wont be borthered much if she doesnt pick us at all. it'll be a load of my already aching shoulders anyway. guess i'll find out tomorrow eh?

the sentosa trip was extremely fun. i enjoyed myself totally. we swam like for 5 hours i think. its no wonder that most of us got sunburnt and now, skin's all peeling away. (suat didnt swim though. was flowin the red river. because of that, there's gonna be another trip to sentosa for her to catch her tan.)
its been a tiring week. preparing for that carolling thing on the 23rd and 24th is really horrible. since monday (excluding wednesday) daph, mel, reena, isabel, joan and me have been going to darius's house to sing sing and sing. and i nearly lost my voice twice. (cos i didnt have much time to relax and basically shut up after the sentosa trip.) this choir thing is tough.
had an interact meeting on the 3rd. lots to do man. the newspaper collection is coming and all and its so difficult to designate work to about a 100 people for this event all around the good half of tampines. sheesh. then the chinese new year celebrations and all. after that the block adoption thing. damn. gonna be a hectic year next year. dont know why the senoirs chose me for presidentship. i myself dont know if i'm cut out for it.