open for business (yes yes... yet again. and will try to keep it that way)
well this is my... what? third attempt at restarting my blog? god only knows. i have been having such a lazy streak about me recently. but then again, last semester has been hell. much happened in my life and ive broken emotional, physical and mental boundries, none of which i would want to go into in much detail really. not that it was (all) bad, dont get me wrong, just that... i'm lazy.
not a good start to restarting my blog (yet again eh)?
well in the spirit of trashing said laziness, i shall attempt to expound... a little.
the modules i took last semester were SO BAD. well... maybe i exaggerate just a tad. on their own each of them (well most of them at least) seemed to be fun and rather promising. boy was i horribly mistaken. when you have 5 science-y modules all rolled into one semester, what you end up with is an overloaded brain full of unnecessary though somewhat fascinating facts that you have to pile on and on and on and on.... just to sit for the exams. note to self: never to this again and stay away from compuational biology.
you would think that as an inherent science dude i would consider a science-y semester heaven and easy even, but it didnt turn out like that (as with most well-laid plans). maybe im not that science-y a person after all.
the stress i experienced was another thing. and not just from the modules; i was emotionally and physically at my worst. i remember once somewhere in febuary thinking that i finally understand why people committ suicide. yes ladies and gents, thats how bad it was. but im glad its over and rest assured that my i'd rather roast my testicles on an open fire before i go through that again (though somewhere deep Deep DEEP inside i am thankful).
on the flip side, this semester saw me going to harvard which was a totally wonderful trip. great city, awesome school, fantastic people and a more liberating culture. man i wish i studied there. the more i think about it the more i feel that i would do so much better and enjoy studying much more in a liberal arts college. i mean these people get to do so much more and whatever they like. i like my education with a dash of flexibility... it adds a whole lot of flavour. i really hope i get to do my masters in the harvard school of education. that is my new academic aim in life right there.
i found out something new about myself somewhere this semester, something different. a good different. a different that allows me to be less scared, more out there, more blatant. which undeniably can be a bad thing (or a norm if youre indian), but i see it more of a good thing. i cant explain it really, which on the hindside makes it seem ridiculous that im even bother to type it down and make you the reader try and comprehend. but whatever... i'll know what i'm talking about when i read this.
and then there was usc prod 09', which was wonderful if i do say so myself (and i do, so there). i really really enjoyed the way it was done. much less fuss, simplicity. i like minimalist sort of plays, where what matters is what being said and the interactions with people. its a lot more meaningful like that i guess. too much mumbo jumbo (a flurry of motion here and a wave of movement there... like my short and sweet play going on now) and the play gets sidetracked into what seems like pointless shit.
ankita :D
now im in the midst of summer. enjoying the moments and trying not to succumb to boredom by going out here and there and trying to keep myself sufficiently occupied by giving tuition, worrying about my rapidly dwindling finances, thinking about exchange, thinking about what modules i should do next semester, getting excited about interning at ngee ann (and im the group leader. must. not. fuck. up.) and scuba diving, which has been onging this whole week. i leave for tioman tomorrow evening and im hope it'll be a fantastic trip. i want to see everything colourful... and a clown fish. yes yes its because of finding nemo. (which i have watched a gazillion times and cried everytime... you are a heartless thing if you havent shed a tear for our animated aquatic friends) i hope we have good weather and that we have sometime to just chill. i really wanna spend some quality time with ankita. havent been doing that as much as i would like to. and it being the summer and all... im never going to get a better more free-er time than now. :)
being in a relationship feels different now. it feels relaxed, not hurried. i always used to feel that i had to be doing something, to make everyday special to make her feel special and to go all out and be that special someone for her. as you can imagine, i always thought relationships to be a tad tiring. but i dont feel like that now. this is different, good different definitely. i like that we talk, even if we dont, i dont feel that i have to fill in the silence with something. everything's just great. but then again i'm only a week into it. (hmmm is that a fair statement to even make... ponders...) i'm just going to enjoy this, enjoy us and hopefully it goes somewhere. i want it to.
well this is my... what? third attempt at restarting my blog? god only knows. i have been having such a lazy streak about me recently. but then again, last semester has been hell. much happened in my life and ive broken emotional, physical and mental boundries, none of which i would want to go into in much detail really. not that it was (all) bad, dont get me wrong, just that... i'm lazy.
not a good start to restarting my blog (yet again eh)?
well in the spirit of trashing said laziness, i shall attempt to expound... a little.
the modules i took last semester were SO BAD. well... maybe i exaggerate just a tad. on their own each of them (well most of them at least) seemed to be fun and rather promising. boy was i horribly mistaken. when you have 5 science-y modules all rolled into one semester, what you end up with is an overloaded brain full of unnecessary though somewhat fascinating facts that you have to pile on and on and on and on.... just to sit for the exams. note to self: never to this again and stay away from compuational biology.
you would think that as an inherent science dude i would consider a science-y semester heaven and easy even, but it didnt turn out like that (as with most well-laid plans). maybe im not that science-y a person after all.
the stress i experienced was another thing. and not just from the modules; i was emotionally and physically at my worst. i remember once somewhere in febuary thinking that i finally understand why people committ suicide. yes ladies and gents, thats how bad it was. but im glad its over and rest assured that my i'd rather roast my testicles on an open fire before i go through that again (though somewhere deep Deep DEEP inside i am thankful).
on the flip side, this semester saw me going to harvard which was a totally wonderful trip. great city, awesome school, fantastic people and a more liberating culture. man i wish i studied there. the more i think about it the more i feel that i would do so much better and enjoy studying much more in a liberal arts college. i mean these people get to do so much more and whatever they like. i like my education with a dash of flexibility... it adds a whole lot of flavour. i really hope i get to do my masters in the harvard school of education. that is my new academic aim in life right there.
i found out something new about myself somewhere this semester, something different. a good different. a different that allows me to be less scared, more out there, more blatant. which undeniably can be a bad thing (or a norm if youre indian), but i see it more of a good thing. i cant explain it really, which on the hindside makes it seem ridiculous that im even bother to type it down and make you the reader try and comprehend. but whatever... i'll know what i'm talking about when i read this.
and then there was usc prod 09', which was wonderful if i do say so myself (and i do, so there). i really really enjoyed the way it was done. much less fuss, simplicity. i like minimalist sort of plays, where what matters is what being said and the interactions with people. its a lot more meaningful like that i guess. too much mumbo jumbo (a flurry of motion here and a wave of movement there... like my short and sweet play going on now) and the play gets sidetracked into what seems like pointless shit.
ankita :D
now im in the midst of summer. enjoying the moments and trying not to succumb to boredom by going out here and there and trying to keep myself sufficiently occupied by giving tuition, worrying about my rapidly dwindling finances, thinking about exchange, thinking about what modules i should do next semester, getting excited about interning at ngee ann (and im the group leader. must. not. fuck. up.) and scuba diving, which has been onging this whole week. i leave for tioman tomorrow evening and im hope it'll be a fantastic trip. i want to see everything colourful... and a clown fish. yes yes its because of finding nemo. (which i have watched a gazillion times and cried everytime... you are a heartless thing if you havent shed a tear for our animated aquatic friends) i hope we have good weather and that we have sometime to just chill. i really wanna spend some quality time with ankita. havent been doing that as much as i would like to. and it being the summer and all... im never going to get a better more free-er time than now. :)
being in a relationship feels different now. it feels relaxed, not hurried. i always used to feel that i had to be doing something, to make everyday special to make her feel special and to go all out and be that special someone for her. as you can imagine, i always thought relationships to be a tad tiring. but i dont feel like that now. this is different, good different definitely. i like that we talk, even if we dont, i dont feel that i have to fill in the silence with something. everything's just great. but then again i'm only a week into it. (hmmm is that a fair statement to even make... ponders...) i'm just going to enjoy this, enjoy us and hopefully it goes somewhere. i want it to.
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