the waiting game

something that i hate playing by the way.

the usp interview this morning was rather unexpected, as most interviews usually are. i assumed that the interview, considering that this is a rather elite and prestigious programme, would be long and detailed, with personal questions encompassing many different acpects of my life on top of questions associated with the programme itself. so naturally thats what i prepared for.

but from the get go, the interviewers seemed rather impatient, at one point even requesting that questions be answered as concisely as possible. they did ask what i expected (with the, contradictingly, expected curveball questions as well, which i had no way of preparing for) but i had to greatly condense what i was trying to say and show the interviewers.

plus i felt it to be too short. it felt like i was in there for only ten to fifteen minutes tops. is that enough?

there are times when you come out from an interview with a feeling of certainty, that you either got it or you didnt. unfortunately, i really do not know for certain how this interview went. both seemed really interested and visibly contented at some of my answers, but at the same time it felt like it was over before i even had a chance to begin.

it feels like i'm playing a game. i've rolled the dice, moved the counter and landed on chance, only someone else picked up my card before i could, and is now dangling my fate beyond reach.