there are some things that people do (or say or behave) that i cannot understand. certain actions that i cannot (or maybe refuse?) to accept and swallow down, like the one too many bitter pill that life offers us the way a discontented nurse might do. funnily enough, its when the people that are closest to us behave this way that it matters. usually acceptance of idiosyncracies and what-not play a large role in mantaining relationships, so the behaviour that i find weird or strange should not be a problem. but.

maybe its obsessiveness. but i'm not like that. god knows that, if anything at all, i'm too patient. so its just a matter of a clash of interests, the textbook example of the ubiquitous not-seeing-eye-to-eye case. but then why cant i accept it and just move on? i'm usually the kinda person that takes things in, live out the desired emotion for a second, then move on thinking 'hey, no use me hoarding over this. its stupid'. this is somehow different, or maybe i'm just being oversensitive.

it just goes to show that perfection is never possible, even in things or people that you are closest with. things just are and you make do and hope that things turn out alright. it's all up to you to slowly accept, to not let slip something you might regret. it's all up to you to keep annoyance in check, to brush it off. up to me.

sounds almost unfair.