i sometimes wish that things could be out in the open, so that i can stop second guessing myself.
out in the open, straight to my face, all laid out on the table, either pull the trigger or throw the gun away. this is a difficult game to play and sometimes i wonder how in hell did i get here in the first place? i wasnt invited, wasnt sure if it even was a game. i just fell right into it. why is that always the case? all my life i've heard how simple it is to slip right into it, but how difficult it is to come back out. just like a kid struggling to climb back up a slippery slide. for the first time in my life i understand, i understand what its like to be that kid.
but the thing is i dunno if i should just slide right down, or start the climb up.