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January 05, 2004

its the new year. haha. this is my first blogpost of the new year. its 2004. looking back to when i was in primary 6, i never thought i'd actually be alive to see 2004. i always expected the world to just end in 2000, and i'd die as a sorry virgin. lol.
2004 is the year where i'm officially turning 18 and it's also the year where i am now called J2. lol. i feel so damn old! i dont feel a day over 15.
anyways, my first few words of the year was, and i quote, 'what idiots'. i was critisising the s'poreans at the sentosa countdown which i was watching on the telly for they did not go in sync with the decresing digits that counted down to the new year and therefore, celebrated the new year a whole 1.5 seconds earlier. fools. (my that was a long sentence eh?)
the first day of school (the 2nd) started of okay. it went reasonably well. timetable looks great. i only get let of at 1715hrs on one day (monday). the rest its 1630hrs or 1415hrs. not bad when compared to my J1 timetable-from-hell. glad that's all gone.
the board meeting when all fine and dandy too. no gliches. (probably because the rotarians did not come!) it was carried out rather informally for such an event, but smoothly nontheless.
on sunday, the 4th, melvyn asked me out cos he was bored. we went to white sands where we ate dinner and sat and talked at coffee bean. (our usual stuff basically) it was that day that he metioned that he was gonna break up with his girlfriend. (i cant remember her name now) i asked why (somewhere in the conversation) and his reply was that he was sick and tired of her face. that's just probably how he talks (melvyn, ye with a heart of stone) but still it musrt have had some truth in it. he told me that he just stopped loving her of feeling what she felt for him. and all this happened after the talk mel had with his gf about being to open in public and moving too fast. that made me wonder; to my knowledge this is the first major problem that he and mei (ah, that's her name) has ever encountered. and after this problem surfaced, feelings changed, too quickly and in such a short time. sure, she is a little, what's the word, pushy and she blew the whole thing out of proportion. but still, in a relationship things should be mended together. and yes i understand that she was being difficult and a plain bitch about the matter, but still... in my opinion, stuff should have been done so a to prevent this matter from festering. it made me wonder if melvyn had ever liked her at all. that is until my guess was turned into a fact when he said that he was 'playing around'.
playing around.
what does one mean when this is said? to find out if the partner is suitable or not through courtship? yes, this is important. mel also mentioned that this part of their relationship was lacking as they moved to fast for him resulting in things that may not have happen to happen. but if you mean otherwise when you use 'playing around' that is to get a good snog and and have the attitude of 'how-far-this-can-take-me-for-some-load-of-fun' then well, that's just pathetic. i mean the latter for of the phrase is very disgusting, with two prongs of disgust for discussion.
firstly in my eyes the person will go down at least 3 notches in my respect zone because he is making use of other people. he is exploiting them to get whatever he/she wants. that is kinda wrong. i mean in a scenario where youre serious in a realtionship and your partner and you decide to have sex after months of courtship and then one day, you decide that you guys arent right for each other, in my opinion that's fine. its totally okay with me. sure we had sex but still, i realise that she wasnt the one. so what? if i know that she's not the one sooner or later she'll realise it too. what i'm talking about is different form the scenario. what i'm targeting are people called playboys, who seek to have 'chicks' so that they can gain popularity or some sort or recognition or name. there sre even some who'd go out with chicks and get it on and dump em immediately after. these people just wanna fuck every gal they know. seehs. it's preety dusgusting. they dont deserve an ounce of respect.
secondly, behaving as such only degrade women. men who are playboys treat women like trophies. they get the trophy, show it of, polish it now and then (if you get my drift) and then discard them away like alec bladwin throwing away a golden globe award. i mean, women are people too. it's really sad to know that there are some fuckers out there who think that women are ornamental items to be placed in a trophycase. it just degrades women and i believe that they dont deserve that.
personally i think that dating and finding out if she's the one and whether you have anything in common is extremely important. it helps with the sifting process. but to make use of a girl to get what you want, that's unacceptable.
moving back to melvyn, for i have digressed, as i usually do, (probably why i dont get good maks in gp essay). i think what he did was kinda wrong. a courtship was in order and melvyn knew that (though, obvioulsy a little too late). yet, he still jumped the gun and went for it in the first place. but maybe now he'll know better i guess. learn form your mistakes, blah blah blah, it what they use to say. and i hope he shall.
as for my perception of him, hasnt changed a bit. takes a whole lot more than just this to change that.
 
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